The Waiting Game

I'm not very good at waiting.
It feels like that's all I ever seem to be doing, waiting for:

• a bus/train
• a response to a job application
• a film to start
• meetings to start
• meetings to end
• letters/emails/texts from...?
• results of exams/medicals/interviews...
• appointments (doctor/dentist/optician/prospective jobs)
• an answer to a question
• even, God

Perhaps I'm impatient.
Is there something else better that I could be doing?
What do you do to fill the 'waiting' time?

This may not be the most Christian of anecdotes - but I'm forever reminded of the story about the man who prayed every night that he would win the lottery.  After weeks/months/years of waiting unsuccessfully to win, the man screams at God and says, 'why don't you answer my prayer?'  God responds, 'because you didn't buy a lottery ticket.'

I am currently in a state of restless limbo - uncertain of what the future holds but itching to move forward, to rediscover purpose, routine and passion in my daily life.  What exactly my 'lottery ticket' is, I do not know, but I realise that I must be actively seeking an answer somehow.  For the time being, I have decided to move away from classroom teaching - although my recent visit to my former primary school did make me reconsider for a split second.  (Thank you all at Christ Church for making me still feel part of your wonderful family despite having left two years ago!)  But the truth of the matter is that volunteering opened doors that I never knew existed (for me)...

And now follows the dilemma when faced with doors of opportunity.  If I face a closed door, what should I do?  Is it closed for a purpose?  Do I wait for someone to open it?  Do I knock and wait?  Or do I just try to open it myself?  Perhaps it's not just waiting that frustrates and confuses me but the different doors before me.  Some are easier to open than others but which do I actually walk through?

I've decided to 'knock and wait' but in the meantime, I hope to keep a hand/foot/eye in primary education and become a private tutor...SO, if there are any (North London based) parents looking for an English/Science or Maths tutor for KS1/2 (or know of ones who are looking) - LOOK NO FURTHER!  Please do get in contact if you are interested.

In any case, I am waiting.
Isaiah 40:31